Oh how sooooo confused i am right now!
I've had a wonderful week spending it with Mr Educated and friends which is why i'm sooo confused, i'm starting re-evaluate things and think to myself what is going on with me, what am i doing with these men, What does leanora want! Mr Educated took me out for drinks and food, we had soo much fun and laughs, however when i got back to his, i really didn't want to sleep with him, i just wanted to go to sleep. It was more a beautiful friendship rather than a beautiful romance. But he made me really happy, really happy put a spring back in my step, however it seems like he doesn't think were on a break anymore, its as though we are back together, we have not had the conversation, however we were both acting as though we had not split up. WTF!
We then met up again over the weekend and he took me out again, another lovely evening and i did want to have sex with him and we did, and it wasn't good, half way through i switched off and just felt sad. I like spending time with him, we have fun lots of fun but sexually it's not happening. I feel like I'm taking the piss out of him now. I haven't seen anyone else, even though Mr Italiano visited me at work and he caught me staring at him and quipped Are you mesmerised lol? as i spilt the jug ao water down my top whilst staring at him. I'm still not interested even though i was staring at him, its because he us good looking but i feel like I've been there done that and worn out the t-shirt looool.
